我从来都没有想过今天又在会发生。
我不想这种东西有从新再发生过。
when i lost Mel, i swear to myself that i wont find another guy again.
until i met you .
you did not make me feel like falling for you before .
but you just did.
over these weeks, the more i look at you , the more i fell in love with you .
i know that things between us wont be able to work out well.
but i just continue falling into that never ending hole.
i hope, i wish that i never fell into it before.
it's not that i regret liking you or even falling for you
you may not be the perfect guy that i'm looking for , but there are things about you that i seriously like.
i have no idea who to tell anymore about my feelings.
i wanted to tell sis but she's forever not free for me..
all these weeks, i have been suffering in silence and obviously you know.
what i want is just to be beside you .
or even have you by my side at my darkest moment.
it used to be sweet talking with you almost everyday .
oovoo with you every night .
but now, things change, you have someoneelse in your mind.
i told myself countless times that i will never let you affect my grades.
i told myself that i will stay strong .
just to make you fall for me..
but day by day , i cant be that strong anymore..
looking at you flirting with other girls..
i feel like blaming you for every single small lil things that we used to do ..
you used to hold my hand when we go shopping ..
we used to spend more time with each other during weekends..
you used to skip church just for me..
but what are we now ? friends? or just familiar strangers.
whatever words that you told me that night , about the thing that i'm different from your ex
about the thing that you do like me?
is that real or fake ?
i cant differentiate them anymore..
you may not know how much you had hurt me .
but trust me , it's more than you think.
praying hard everyday that even that one single min , i am in your mind , in your concern.
i can see other friends of yours can even catch your attention more than i do.
just like ytd , just like ytd that i join you for dinner, looking at you flirt with someone that you just know.
knowing that i get jealous easily, you just continue , and nothing goes on ..
you stared at me knowing that I  WILL GET JEALOUS ..
you know how much that i really like you but yet things are still going your way../.



13:59